Tuesday, February 2

001

Message 001

Like crystal the sky shatters in blinding, undying, now trying light that glimmers in the eyes of peace makers, the word shapers, the emotion stealers, the idealists who wish only the brightest, the lightest of futures until this lightning of shadows had struck them and the blood runs black over the fallen sky.

Message 002

But when the shattered sky brightens on the cleansing dark blood that the alchemists, the pacifists, the passionate, the empaths can still walk past towards the above, towards the heavens, the valhallan mountains beyond those thundered fragments of the stars.

Tuesday, January 26

LEGAL

So last Saturday was my birthday.
I've gotten into the habit of not really caring about birthdays but this was a bit different for the following reason:

1. It is the day that marks the 18th year of my life which means I am legal. I don't smoke, I don't live in Germany (or Europe in General) so I cannot yet buy alcohol, Marijuana is not yet legalized so I do not wish to partake; but it does mean I can get a new knife, I can get my Drivers license in a matter of months, depending on my my personal confidence, I can get more jobs and I can act with the need for permission forms.

2. I got to spend it with my two favourite people, my bestfriend and my girlfriend. Which is always a blast.

3. This birthday is more of a "Right of Passage" than the Sixteenth was because I have a lot more going for me than I did then.

So the day was simple in theory. Got up, showered, got a text from Eleshia and out the door.
We went to Emma's, ambushed her, hung out, received my present from Emma (which was awesome and I will need to try it tomorrow for lunch or something!) (Yes, it is a food stuff) and Eleshia (Which was hysterical in a racist and geeky sort of way!), hungout, etc. ect. ect.
Then after attack of pirates, talk of anime and lots of Jap rock we proceeded to D.P.C. for dinner.
A large Hawai'ian pizza and three Dr. Peppers, which were switched beyond recognition, and Eleshia's ridiculous accent (caught somewhere between Wales and Sweden) made for a lot of fun and the following video is about the tail end of the dialect rant:

Yeah, it was a fun day with Eleshia and Emma and stuff and it was... yeah.
ANYWAY!

Other life things:
Been listening to more indie music.
Been driving and practicing.
Being excited about a lock in.


Shalom, Raya and May God Bless;
(Or was peace, love and chicken feet?)
Brent Matthew Lillard
@SAKUTOnoSai



Friday, January 1

2010

Well, it's hear.
The second decade of the 21st Century.
The second best year of my life has passed to dawn the best year, yet, I'm sure.
The words oh-nine and oh-numeral have passed to replaced with twenty-ten and twenty-eleven.
I prayed, meditated, gave thanks for the year passed and what has yet to become.
It wasn't as "exciting" as last years celebration in the farmland of Suffolk, Virginia where we shot off fire works and had drinks but I feel like this New Years was peaceful, ready to kick off as even better year than the last.

In my personal life, 2009 ended with a blast of a month and the turn of the decade has dawned a year I look forward to taking part in.

Until next time I speak, I ask you to remember to do good work;
May God Bless You.
Happy New Year.
Raya & Shalom,
Brent Matthew Lillard
@SAKUTOnoSai

Monday, December 28

Nearing the end of a decade...

Almost there!
I've been lucky enough to experience the 1990sas a child, even though amost of my memories of the American culture of the time was just before the turn of the century and is skewed by memories of terrible Britney Spears and NSYNC music.
Alas, I am lucky enough to have experienced two roman decades and am glad to see this one pass with Bang, in my life anyway.
I mean, honestly what a way to end not only the year but the decade! I've figured out what I want to do with my life (kinda), I'm about to finish my Highschool Education, I have an amazing Girlfriend, I have the greatest group of friends ever and all is good on the home front.

I also saw some really good movies this year! In fact Saturday I met Emma at the theatre to see Joel Silver & Guy Ritchie's Sherlock Holmes.
On a side note, props to Alec by the way, more on that later.
Anyway, onto the film!
When I heard about him making a Sherlock Holmes movie I got pretty excited. That was last year.
It was done beautifully; from the CGI and all the other work that created turn of the century London to the creation of the young Sherlock Holmes and John Watson, and their comical brother-like relationship.
First off, I've always pictured Sherlock Holmes and Watson as younger men than normally portrayed since I first read a Study in Scarlet by Sir Arthur Conan Doyle. Holmes is described as a young and very brilliant inventor who was ignorant of common knowledge and extremely irrational; however, a walking library of unique wisdom and logic. John Watson describes himself as a veteran shaken by the war in India, clearly tough, strong, a far shorter fuse than his friend Holmes. What I'm trying to say is that Robert Downey, Jr. and Jude Law were simple perfect for the rolls and Rachel McAdams as Irene Adler was funny. Just funny.
Secondly, the C.G.I. was magnificent, from the unfinished Westminster Bridge and other scenery and atmosphere to every explosion and close detail shot requiring that extra digital detail.
The movie was a fair mix of action, mystery, suspense and humor, so, yes. I liked the movie and so did Emma; win-win.
Alas, there were aspects of the film that I think lacked detail or were too forward on the "hint-hint" side of things, while other aspects of the film, like comedy, could have been taken down just a notch and the suspense could have been a bit more epic.
Then again, I just saw Avatar, as well, so....
As a final note, the end of the film pretty much sold tickets to it's sequel if the Producers have signed a contract; so, while I'm not waiting for it, I will be expecting another Sherlock Holmes movie in the next two years.

On a side note, one of the producer of Holmes was Joel Silver, a man who I am personally a fan of for his masterpiece that was the Matrix Series. He's done all the Matrix related stuff, V for Vendetta, Speedracer, Ninja Assassin and... Predator and Predator 2.
I just saw Avatar, the latest work of James Cameron who did Titanic, the Terminator series, and directed Aliens. Aliens was a part of a series based from a 1976 film called Alien created by Gordon Carroll, David Giler and Walter Hill.
Alien and Predator were combined by Walter Hill, David Giler and Gordon Carrol, and also by John Davis who worked on the Predator Series.
Beware the Slime: it's a lot worse than you would expect.

So, I haven't talk about music in a while and given my taste changes on a monthly basis I think it's time to recap on the seasons.
Since moving to Missouri almost a year ago, my hatred of Country Pop and Country Rock has been enforced by the majority of Country Music stations coming down from the bluff and out of Cape. Don't get me wrong! I like bluegrass, I like Johnny Cash, I like older versions of modern country, but I can not stand to hear another song about "knockin' boots", pick-up trucks, Chevys or beer & whiskey!
I've also become a huge fan of a man named David Vandervelde who I discovered through the Nooma videos (produced by Flannel) and woman named Brie Stoner. A very mellow yet lively kind of indie rock I really enjoy. I've gotten into the Album Leaf and that's also rekindled my taste in Mogwai and Tristeza.
On the classical, or traditional, side of the field I've gained a love over the year of Bear McCreary, a score composer who did the work for Caprica, Battlestar Galactica, Terminator: Sarah Conner Chronicles and other shows. His unique and very near-eastern influence music is very beautiful and really pulled me into the world of Galactica, as cheesy as that sounds. Definitely check him out, search him on Youtube, try a couple songs.
Thanks to my friends Kyle and Larry, I've also gotten into Metal again with Vanna, Underoath, Otherwise, Demon Hunter and some other bands. That has also pushed me into Christian Rock recently as well! I've been listening to a lot of Flyleaf, Disciple, Skillet, Thousand Foot Crutch, Third Day, Falling Up, Plumb, Kutless, Newsboys, Toby Mac. All have a really good sound.
In the last month I've been listening to a bit of the combined of the above with more 80s music, Japanese rock music (L'Arc~en~Ciel, Asian Kung Fu Generation, Dir en Grey), Alternative Rock out of the U.K. (Franz Ferdinand, Gorillaz[well, kinda]), and a bunch of Placebo (as always).

So, if you don't know me in person and you don't pay attention then you may not have realized that I am an Otaku (Japanese for nerd, essentially; thus a nerd who like Manga, Anime, anything associated with Japan) who loves Manga.
Also, I've always considered myself a Artist since I was, like, ... seven. I've always enjoyed drawing, painting and creating stories.
Even at one point in time, I wanted to be a mangaka or a cartoonist, which was a rather long living dream that still has some shadows in my goals today; I continue to write a three year going project that I call my novel and I want to begin making art again.
So, today I'm going to talk about a mangaka I'm great fan of:
I've begun reading a manga called Bakuman with art by one of my favourite mangaka named Obata Takeshi (小畑 健) with his long time partner Tsugumi Ohba; and, ironically enough, Bakuman is a Manga about two boys who dream of being Mangaka.
I've been a fan of Obata Takeshi since I started reading Manga. In fact, the first manga I ever read was Hikaru-no-Go which had the artwork of Obata and story by Yumi Hotta. Hikaru was a coming of age story about a boy named Hikaru who would become a Professional Go player. Needless to say that story inspired me to learn the game of Go, which has since been my favourite strategy board game older than just a few centuries (Milleniums actually). I even made my own board.
Before Bakuman, Ohba and Obata created Deathnote, a VERY popular (and "wordy") manga and the reference of many jokes about everything from psychos to emos to sugar loving ... L-like-people....
Takeshi Obata has also been the mentor of other Mangaka who's work I'm rather fond of; like Kentaro Yabuki, creator of another favourite manga of mine called Black Cat, and Nobuhiro Watsuki, who created Rurouni Kenshin and Busou Renkin.
Black Cat is about an unusual sweeper (bounty hunter) who has ties with the syndicate and gets pulled into a deep, dark adventure by shadows of his past.
Kenshin is samurai themed story about a former killer from the Bakumatsu whos become a wanderer bent of helping people.
Busou Renkin is about a guy named Kazuki Muto who gets himself mixed up in a world of Alchemy and Homunculi! FUN!
So yes, I am a fan of Obata Takeshi.
A bit random but I wanted to share some of my Otaku knowledge.

So anyway with the random shout of:
ihsaratiM oknA
ikustaniM ayaS

So, to cap off this blog, I think I'll say again that 2009 has been a big year. My life, philosophy, politics and faith as evolved a lot in the time since I've moved.
I've met a lot of interesting people and made some of the greatest friends a guy could ever ask for, even if they don't live in Missouri (you know who you are).
It's clear to see my music taste has change and so has my writing, and even if that sounds silly to most, that's pretty important to me.
My outlook on faith, how ever unstable it was last year, has drastically changed and become stronger and more Christ-like, I think, and that's what matters in some sense.
After all, I came here not knowing what I would do or how I would gain new company; now, I know what I'm supposed to do and it would allow me to pursue my other dreams as well; and I have wonderful friends, the type you can trust, and this month has been so unusual and yet so amazing.
I look to the new year.

So with that I bid you you, good bye!
Remember to do good work and may God bless you.

Shalom & Raya,
Brent Matthew Lillard
@SAKUTOnoSai


Tuesday, December 22

Writing Beta 1

So, if any of you pay attention, you know I enjoy writing and that I've spent a great deal of time writing a work of fiction which I have only referred to as my novel for two years.

I wanted to talk a little bit about what writing is to me and the way I write, maybe get some practice in as well.

So, let's start with my novel's setting:
It's a Scientific Romance or Fantasy that takes place at no specified time period possibly millions of years in the future where humanity, after many apocalypses, has taken a hard reset and is no as advanced as we are.
While this society is not technically advanced they are physically more advanced in evolution. For example most people live to be a Hundred thirty five years old, there are being with highly concentrated awareness of time, space and spirituality who (kind of like a prophet?), and there are races or bloodlines that are physically stronger, faster and more war like.

I enjoy Scientific Romance, but that doesn't mean I'm going to use lasers and lightsabre-nunchaku, oh no, I prefer a trebuchet or dual dao. (split Chinese broad sword)

No a setting, isn't what's important to me. Personally, I prefer character driven stories that don't lay out a black (evil) and white (good) perspective of a world; i.e. there is no hero, no villain but a single world split by forces who want the same thing but have very different ideas and ideals as to how it should be done, then once there is in place a key story create a world around it.
To create the conflict around a world broken world would be like creating an epic film and polarizing the humanity of the story into an amplified version of reality.

Now, because my story is only at the half way point I'm not going to give out any details as what it's about, I'm not stupid (much), but I will demonstrate my writing style:

First a concept: A group of lower class teenagers making the best of life even if they don't have the benefits of living in an advance society.

Second a primary character named Cole Ellington-Martin, he's sixteen and works as a laborer, he's good with his hands and has a girlfriend who is dirty blonde. He has a conflicted past for his parents were divorced and he was passed back from from an abusive mother who was once an Militia Sergeant (see, already making the world) and his alcoholic depressed father who never helped his son even though he heard the cries of help.
Third, some more Characters:
Byrum Elliot Smith is an in the closet homosexual (suggests that this world looks down on homosexuality) who is best friends with Cole and spend most of his time smoking pot and hanging out with Cole at the work place (A suggests the legality might be different in their world or that they live in a loose community). Always wear's a charcoal gray fedora, never talks about his family, considers Cole his only family most of the time.
Tristan Darlene Reidel is Cole's girlfriend and she comes from a rich family but hates the aristocracy of it all and spends most of her time avoid them and her aids so she can just get away with Byrum and Cole. Sometimes only Cole, it gets cold on the weekend.

Forth comes the setting:
I'm going to say they live in place like Nowhere, Kansas but they live in a country run by an Aristocratic Government (crude oil, war and socialism at it's worst, an idealist's nightmare) that gives all the coastal prime land and military support to those who pay for it and those who live in Nowhere are stuck with a volunteer Militia. The Aristocracy is a bit more advance than we are but in Nowhere there is not so much high tech juice and more broken down Chevys.

Fifth comes the writing and deciding on a perspective. Standardly, most stories are written either from first or third person (with other choices below third person) but I like to toy around with the unconventional like using both or even second person to really mess with your head.
I prefer first person because it's very human, it comes quite literally from the perspective of the main character and you can get a personality from them.
So let's begin:

From an outsider's perspective we were just pukes living in the dust bowl that was Old Obtain City in the Crescent Province. Farmers and sons of laborers who used to work in the tank factories back in war time were the only people that lived here. Not that I really care what those rich nothoi thought of us, I had the time of my life in those parts, no military, no money, no rules.
The smell of oil and gasoline was the in the air as me and Byrum pushed the old Jeep out of the mud as Tristan lean against the door of the shop shaking her head at our methodical madness.
"You two jacks can't do anything without making a mess, can you?" She laughed rolling her eyes as I shot her nasty look before letting off the tail gate, as did Byrum as we stepped back from the mud and examined it.
It was one of those genius moments where I let Cox park a car I've spent weeks on. Well, that's not say he's always incompetent, he does amazing body work until you get near him and an air powered ANYTHING, my arm was still in a sling from the drill accident.
"Well, Cole," Byrum, standing beside me, put his arm over my shoulders to rest before giving a great sigh, "Now what?"
I looked at the two metric tons of jeep and wiped the sweat from my forehead, "Get in the driver's seat and let on the throttle when I say, Trill,"
She pulled her hair from her face and pushed herself off the door and ran over to the right side of the jeep and got in.
"Okay, let's do this," I said, shrugging Byrum off me before I heard a loud roar from the engine and before I knew it the two of us were hit by a wall of mud.
Mud, as thought by rich folk, is something we militia children dwell in. No, motor oil and grease, but not mud.
"The hell are you doing?" Shouted Byrum running for cover behind me and as I covered my face till the rev of the engine calmed.
I lowered my arm, seeing past to the blonde in the driver's seat, "You were saying, about making a mess?" I said before looking behind me at my friend crouching for safety.
She smiled at me and sat back down into her seat, giving me a thumbs up as I walked over to the to the tail gate and leaned against it, as did my huskier friend.
Byrum ran his hand through his short black hair and peeked over the tail gate, "On tria?" I nodded and she placed his hand to the bumper.
"Give it some petrol," I shouted and she slowly began revving up the engine and I looked at Byrum and began, "Ena... duo... tria!"
We both push as the wheels turned and mud whipped past our legs. With great thud and a loud roar the jeep practically jumped from the hole as we fell in it before the Jeep sped across the dirt parking lot before spinning and burning out into the wooden fence across to a dust veiled stop.
I scrambled from the mud and ran into the dust cloud to the empty vehicle. I ran around and jumped the fence beyond the screen to find Trill on her knees in the grass.
"Yeshua Messia," I sighed running to her so I could help, "are you okay?"
"I'm fine!" She barked and I stepped back.
"That had to be going at least eighty," I chuckled in hysteria as she helped herself to her feet.
"Next time," She said looking at her shaking arms, "you drive and I count to drei."
End of scene.

So I don't know what that was about, entirely, so I may return to this and revise and add onto it.
I've been wanting a side project to practice when I can't seen to write for the main project so this was fun.
Sorry about the random.
Thanks for reading.

Do good work.
May God Bless.
Shalom and Raya.

Brent Matthiew Lillard
@SAKUTOnoSai

Monday, December 21

Polyphemus and Chicago


So in the last three days I've watched two excellent movies.

I'm going to start with today's movie, Public Enemies. Starring one of my favourite actors the handsome and talent Johnny Depp and a new favourite of mine, Christian Bale.
It's kind of funny to combine the words Historical and Action in the same sentence; however, this one made for a very action packed and period correct film.
Johnny Depp did an amazing job of portraying one of my favourite bank robbers from the 1930s, John Dillinger, as an what appeared to be an anarchist who would stop at nothing to gain what he wanted: Fun, Guns, Fast Cars and his woman which eventually led him to his end.
Although I've never liked the figure that was Melvin Purvis, Christian Bale also did wonderful at portray the resolved G-Man that chased Dillinger like a cat after a very FAST mouse.
The action was exciting, , the atmosphere of the world made it fell like mid depression Chicago and the acting was good as always.
As a final note, that man who shot and killed Dillinger, Charles Winstead, was played the blue Eyed wonder that is Stephen Lang...

On the subject of Stephen Lang this leads the other movie, which I am STILL stoked about, after seeing it.
During the Youth Shopping trip me, my friends, my girlfriend and my youthleader (I think miss ADHD, Major, was there too) went to see Avatar.
It was AMAZING!
In James Cameron's AVATAR, Stephen Lang plays the ever resolved military mind that is Colonel Miles Quaritch.

In a local system called Alpha Centauri A there is an earth sized moon orbiting a gas giant, Polyphemus; and this moon is called Pandora.
Where do I start? The world.
James Cameron did an amazing and beautiful job of bring to life a lush, epic, living and breathing (and thinking?) world that was so very different from Earth and yet so tempting and familiar that my friends and I still want to go to Pandora and become one of the blue skinned, and in tune with nature, Na'vi!
In concept this story examined the importance of maintaining and preserving the environment, the dangers of greed and, even prejudice and genocide set a a realistic science fiction enviroment making for a thought provoking and very entertaining film epic.
The CGI in this film was astonishing and really created a world unlike earth while still appearing unbelievably realistic even in the most hectic action sequences and in the closest calm shots. I mean it's relatively easy to put a gas giant with other moons in the methane rich sky, it's another thing to have giant reptile birds that you pug your braid into and fly between floating mountains.
Another thing I always keep an eye out for in continuity errors. They had it as perfect as a film can be from the Pandora being a super massive organic computer (like a human brain?) to Colonel Quaritch running out of the facility, holding his breath as he shot his gun, exposing himself to the methane, carbon dioxide and ammonia rich atmosphere, before gasping into an oxygen mask.
On the subject of the world, the Navi people were a beautiful and advanced primitive race that I envy. (nuffsed)
So with all the technical stuff aside, even though I haven't even scratched the surface, the movie was incredible and I'd be willing to see it again because it was amazing on the big screen.
I should probably go see it in 3D; because, from what I've read they used a new Stereoscopic camera that mimics human eyesight to film the entire movie and given that home 3D sucks, theatre is the way to go.
Either way, I suggest you go see Avatar while it's still in Theatres.

So, thank you for reading.
Do good work.
May God Bless.
Shalom;
Brent Matthew Lillard
@SAKUTOnoSai

Friday, December 18

I've wingin' it, BO'Y

So I'm not sure what to say this time except I'm excited about tomorrow.

I know I don't talk about my life much so here's a slice of life:
I'm excited about tomorrow because I go to Cape Girardeau with my friends for the Youth Group shopping trip.
I mean, I need to get out of this house for a while and what better than spending the day with my friends at the mall?
Ironically enough I come from Hampton Roads, Virginia where every other city has a fair sized mall complete with a Macy's, Bookstore, Sears, and J. C. Penny; however, since I moved here almost a year ago I have not set foot into the mall at Cape any farther than the Barnes & Noble's Manga/Science-Fiction section.
So, needless to say, I'll not be taking on this journey alone.
Alas, I don't do the Christmas present thing with most people simply because for the past two years Christmas has been untraditional and I've found I much prefer a peaceful, quiet Christmas focused to prayer, thanks and Jesus than a traditional, even though I love a nice Christmas Tree; But, back to what I was saying, I'm not big on presents and I'm hurting for cash (that cold, green-backed, folding stuff) so I'm shopping for a very chosen few.
Which means I've got to think hard, because I'm not good at gift giving.
Also, today, I cut my hand on a computer part, that's lovely.....




On a tech note I heard a rumors that Google has finally released a Beta of Chrome for Macintosh! I'd been waiting for this day to come for a long while before I finally I sat down and installed the Developer's version. I've actually found I prefer the developer's version simply because it's updated weekly as apposed to Monthly (Beta) so I'm sticking to the Dev channels of both Mac and PC.
But, in all seriousness, I've been using Chrome on Leopard for months, now, and I've gotten maybe two crashes during it's use so why wait so long to release the beta? I mean, honestly, do they really expect biased or unexperienced computer users to download an opensource browser, especially a beta?

But I digress....
On my PC I have begun using the extensions for Chrome and, to my surprise, they are very good!
They're lightweight and very useful. Here on the one's I particularly like:
AdThwart - This blocks unwanted and annoying Ads on everything from Facebook, MySpace, YouTube. My favourite extension ever, to be honest.
Google Mail Checker - Gives me a button on the toolbar that shows how many letters are in my GMail inbox and if I click the button it opens my GMail inbox. If you already have GMail open in another tab, it will take you to that tab. I like this because on my Mac, I have an SSB Fluid App in my Dock dedicated to GMail. (I dislike Apple's Mail application)
Google Calendar Checker - I've found, after having three operating systems fail (one windows, two Macs), that it's safer to have my agenda saved in the cloud and not on my computer. So, I use Google Calendar as my primary agenda and just let iCal sync with it so I can get it on my Mac and iPod; however, since I don't have a calendar program on my PC that syncs with it I've found having a small icon in my toolbar that will take me directly to my calendar or show me how much free time until my next event is handy.
XMarks Thumbnails - It does pretty much what any userscript can do on any other browser (just without the help of Grease Monkey) by adding a picture preview of websites on your Google search results. This is a feature I miss about using userscripts in Firefox.
SmoothScroll - Purely an aesthetic choice. I never use a mouse on my MacBook Pro because I love the multi-touch so one of the things I really like about it is that when I scroll using the multi-touch it's always smooth. It's silly, but I like having this tool around to keep the paging flowing nice and smooth, instead of jerky like most of the time with a scroll wheel. It can also be calibrated so that's pretty handy depending on your system.

As a closer I'm going to bring back a piece of software I mention a few months ago from Stardock.com called LogonStudio which is used to modify the logon GUI in windows.
It's purely cosmetic and permanent because it just changes the text and Bitmap images in the LogonUI.exe application. (I think, I'm guessing.)
I used it before to lesser degree so I could have a simple white background but since then I've refit the GUI to my Windows XP again so I figured I refit the Logon UI again as well.
So I thought I'd share.
If you want to spruce up you Logon screen, this is definitely the way to do it. You can change it then uninstall the program and it will remain the way you made it.

As for tomorrow and my dismay as to what movie to see I've come to the conclusion with Emma to go see Avatar.
I haven't seen a Jame's Cameron movie in a while. I mean, Titanic came out when I was, like, five and the first two Terminators were way back in the eighties!
So, while I'm afraid to see Terminator: Salvation (because I'd probably really like it), it looks like a good science-fiction and action film and I am getting a slight Halo vibe from the trailers I've seen, which peaks my curiosity even more.

So that is all until next time.
So, remember to do good work.
May God Bless.
Shalom.
Brent Matthew Lillard
@SAKUTOnoSai